The world is complicated, messy, even cruel at times. From a distance, it's not a bad thing, and we take pride in those who learn, little by little, just how complicated real life is. But when you experience the complexity of the world firsthand, there's a moment where everything you thought you knew stops making sense, and you don't know which way is up and which way is down. When it's over, you think that you're alright, but you're not. You aren't someone who only feels one thing about the world. You've seen it break, for no clear reason, and you can't even find someone you can blame. When you experience the world up close, you realize that it isn't complicated, not in the way a person could understand. It just doesn't make sense.