I just got back from what was supposed to be a fun adventure, a break from the mundane everyday. It was a break, but not in a relaxing way. I'm tired, and I can barely think straight. I don't remember going to fairs/festivals being this overstimulating, but then I don't really remember what it was like to do things pre-pandemic either. I know that I ought to remember, but thinking about the past, trying to sort out what was and wasn't real, leaves me dizzy and exhausted. Moments like this make me look back and wonder; did I ever have any fun at all?