Wishes

 Why am I wishing for things to get better and worse
At the same time?
Why do I want someone to tell me that I'll have it all
And that I'll be nothing
In the same breath?
I want a reason to mope,
But I want to believe 
That someday,
Somehow,
I'll win so big 
That I need never play 
This twisted game 
Again. 
I can't have it all.
So which one will I pick?