If I ever became rich, I wouldn't know what to do with all of the money that I had. I'm used to just taking what I can get, looking for things a thrift stores, buying what's on sale, things like that. I'm not poor, I just don't have a lot of disposable income. Lately, though, I've been dreaming about what life would be like if I won the lottery, and I realized that if I could spend it I'm not sure what I'd spend it on. Buying things in a store where you can buy anything is just so much more overwhelming than trying to find treasure at a thrift store. It's not a big issue for me, but I feel like this is the reason so many people go bankrupt when they win the lottery; they don't know what they want to spend money on first. All they know is how to budget so that their needs get met. I don't have any great solutions for this, since it's not like anyone could claim that things like accessories or fancy clothes are necessities. I just think that dreams should be accessible to everyone, and that society and culture should be able to communicate with each other. Maybe instead of trying to monetize the ideas behind the metaverse, we should make them as available to people as possible so that everyone can find their identity. The money companies charge for cosmetics is kind of gross anyways.
I've always been fascinated by irrationality. In logic puzzles we always use perfect logicians because they're behavior is predictable. It's the illogical that's hard to grasp. As I get older, I find myself pulled into a world of people who approach things more rationally and are more capable of making hard decisions than the world that I left behind. Or maybe I'm the one who grew up somehow.
Well, Joe Biden isn't running for president anymore, and it looks as though Kamala Harris will be the presidential nominee instead. I say this as someone who's still not one hundred percent sure if she'll vote; I hope that Kamala wins. I don't want another four years with Trump, and while I'd be much happier knowing for sure that she'll do something about Israel, at this point I'll take not knowing that I'd be voting for someone who clearly doesn't care about the death of potentially millions of people. I'll still be watching her though. All of us will. And I hope Kamala keeps that in mind when she's sworn into office.
I'm looking at the candidates for the Washington Primary, and so far I'm immensely disappointed. The one socialist I found is Pro-Israel. How in hell he thinks he has a chance, I don't know. I'm pretty sure I'm not voting for anyone this time. I'm not proud of doing this, but I'm not pretending that either the Democrats or the Republicans have any interest in preserving our democracy in general or in keeping Autistic people safe in particular.
Update: upon reading about the people running for governor, I'm happy to state that I've found someone that I want to vote for. Wish me luck!
Full disclosure: I'm not voting in the next election. I find it hard to believe that my vote will fix anything when both presidents have shown themselves to be pro-genocide. That said, I still think people should vote next election. I'm not voting because I have no better way of saying that no one in our government represents me or my interests. The people who aren't in that position should absolutely vote, because if they don't our world won't know how many people the system still represents.
That being said, a lot of people are in the same position that I'm in; historically oppressed groups who have been voting Democrat because it was the only way they had a chance of being heard. All we've been given in the past four years amounts to lip service at best, and since nothing's been done to curb the loss of human rights it's fair to say that we've suffered a net loss. What has the Democratic party done to combat this? Nothing. When you drive down Bellevue Streets, you see plenty of signs for Republicans, but not a single Democrat. Despite the fact that the Democrats reputation is in the toilet. It was under Biden's watch that a genocide happened and millions of Palestinians were displaced and killed. What did the Democrats do? They pushed through more funding to Israel. Whether they're desperate for campaign money or just extremely racist and evil, I don't know and I honestly don't care.
The fact of the matter is that Trump made the Democrats complacent. They won by such a large margin in 2020 that they're now convinced that they can't lose no matter how much they screw up. In doing so, they're leaving people with no choice but to see a world where Republicans will one day push down the barricade between our world and the Infinite because not only will the Democrats do nothing to stop them, they'll give them grenades if given enough campaign money. I have no idea what makes a Democracy healthy, but I simply refuse to believe that it's a world of people who are disillusioned, disempowered, and bitter with the whole charade. At this point we have two options; push for a system that will make our current system look as authoritarian as absolute monarchies do to us, or accept our fate and step forward into a world where we have no power at all.
I'm working on figuring out a way of helping people build their own Dreamworlds. I don't expect it to be accepted as a science, and I don't really want it to be one. I want a future where people can build their own fantasies as a way of helping them connect to reality, not as a way of replacing reality. Mostly, we just need a world where people can safely live in places other than what society thinks as reality. We're at a point where even reality is dangerous and unstable, and I'd like to think there are ways of fixing that, and I am to be the incredibly bad idea that gets people thinking about what could be possible going forward.
I'm just going to put this out there into the world; if you collect enough data about someone to know there's a pretty good chance they're not gender conforming, don't design your web algorithm to send them makeup ads aimed at women who are trying to look conventionally attractive. Even if they're interested, you're not going to win them over if you imply you only care about people who use makeup to conform. Seriously, it's 2024. How do you not know that not every woman wants to be beautiful and not everyone who's assigned female at birth wants to be a woman?
I feel like I ought to say something about the attempted assassination on Trump, but I can't think of anything to say. At least, not anything to say that's really appropriate for the blog, or even anything that the general public really wants to hear. I know that I'm not the only person hoping that Trump dies before the next election, and I'm also not the only person who's aware that Trump dying wouldn't solve a lot of things. What I will say is that I was in no way invested in the outcome of this election, but now I'm curious to see who does what to whom. Everyone has a stake, we all have someone that we're rooting for, and our country is at a crossroads. It's anyone's game at this point, and I'm rooting for the left. Because when all is said and done, I don't just want to survive, I want to live.
I'm trying to teach myself that I'm valid and that I matter. That's difficult since I'm Autistic and like most Autistic people, professionally or self-diagnosed, I tend to try and mask when I'm with people. I suck at masking, but it was still bad enough to come out of college with no sense of identity at all. I'm working on rebuilding it. It's why I'm so grateful for a blog that won't become famous. I know the world is waiting to meet me, but I don't want to go until I know that I'm ready.
I think that we're at a turning point. Everyone now has their own opinion of where we should go and what we should do. A person could, feasibly, look at who wants what and from that build a world that will be accepted, if not embraced, by everyone currently in the United States, barring a massive shift like a war or another pandemic. I don't think anyone in government is going to do this, but if you're like me, you believe that our Universe is in a quantum state where every possible outcome will be accepted regardless of belief, so a world where everyone believes in something is the beginning of a world where people will once again feel happy and safe. We're at that point now. We are looking at the beginning of the future, whatever that future is going to be. Look out, decide if it's what you want, and then push for what you don't think you can live without that isn't a part of our new world yet. I know it sounds crazy, but I think we might finally be on the upturn.
It's weird having four digits worth of posts, in a good way. I realize that I'm using the blog as a replacement for Twitter, but I think we all need a replacement for Twitter. I just wish there was a better way to find people who share my opinions of the world. Ah well, I can't undo the past. I'm here now, and that's all that matters.
In light of the Supreme court telling Donald Trump that he's free to do whatever he wants, I think we need to admit that as far as our government is concerned, reality doesn't exist anymore. We're free to see the world as whatever we want it to be. I see the world as a place where Trump lost in 2016 and this election is between Hilary Clinton's successor and a bitter man who won't admit that he can't win. Even if you aren't actively denying reality, that's pretty much the case.