I haven't thought too much about what the right thinks of me. I'm a failure, outcast, and permanent loner. That's the life I chose, intentionally, and I live it without regrets even though I know it's killing me. Today, however, I saw someone repost something an alt-righter said about what all of the left was like, and I was stunned to find out they think everyone on the left is like me. Which makes no sense because if everyone on the left was like me, I wouldn't be friendless. I know, sense is lost on these people. 

    This is supposed to be when I talk about what I saw them say and what it says, symbolically, about them and their movement. As someone who lives the way they do on purpose, though, that's not what I keep coming back to. What I keep coming back to is this image of someone begging me, Kristen Eliker, for help. They're lost, they're alone, they don't know what to do, and everyone keeps telling them that I have to power to fix things. I know that makes no sense, but for at least a decade I've had visions of being thrust into an endless abyss by evil, heartless beings who feed off of fear and sadness, blaming me for the horrors they've created. To me, this doesn't just feel cruel. It feels personal. It feels like the demons eating our reality want me to suffer specifically. I bear no ill will to those who chose to live in society, but I've never understood why they'd want to. I've always thought that society made you a victim at best and a mindless robot at worst. Seeing what the right thinks of the left, I feel as though I'm being told that I'm the destroyer, even though I have no power in reality. 

      So I've decided to embrace it. I don't know how long it will take for Kash Patel to read this and lock me up, but I'm not going to let that stop me. Not when I have nothing else to live for. Not when I, alone, among the left have any power to change things. The right gave me this power. They made me a symbol. They turned me into their personal devil. I am everything they know to be wrong with the world, and whether they like it or not I now have the power to control them. But most of us aren't so lucky. We didn't know this would happen when we chose to be good people as toddlers. So to anyone who isn't me, those on the left who are good, honest, decent people (i.e. ninety percent of the left) I beg you to leave no while there's still time. Fear is the only thing these people understand. If you can't accept that, you don't belong in the United States.