I haven't thought too much about what the right thinks of me. I'm a failure, outcast, and permanent loner. That's the life I chose, intentionally, and I live it without regrets even though I know it's killing me. Today, however, I saw someone repost something an alt-righter said about what all of the left was like, and I was stunned to find out they think everyone on the left is like me. Which makes no sense because if everyone on the left was like me, I wouldn't be friendless. I know, sense is lost on these people. 

    This is supposed to be when I talk about what I saw them say and what it says, symbolically, about them and their movement. As someone who lives the way they do on purpose, though, that's not what I keep coming back to. What I keep coming back to is this image of someone begging me, Kristen Eliker, for help. They're lost, they're alone, they don't know what to do, and everyone keeps telling them that I have to power to fix things. I know that makes no sense, but for at least a decade I've had visions of being thrust into an endless abyss by evil, heartless beings who feed off of fear and sadness, blaming me for the horrors they've created. To me, this doesn't just feel cruel. It feels personal. It feels like the demons eating our reality want me to suffer specifically. I bear no ill will to those who chose to live in society, but I've never understood why they'd want to. I've always thought that society made you a victim at best and a mindless robot at worst. Seeing what the right thinks of the left, I feel as though I'm being told that I'm the destroyer, even though I have no power in reality. 

      So I've decided to embrace it. I don't know how long it will take for Kash Patel to read this and lock me up, but I'm not going to let that stop me. Not when I have nothing else to live for. Not when I, alone, among the left have any power to change things. The right gave me this power. They made me a symbol. They turned me into their personal devil. I am everything they know to be wrong with the world, and whether they like it or not I now have the power to control them. But most of us aren't so lucky. We didn't know this would happen when we chose to be good people as toddlers. So to anyone who isn't me, those on the left who are good, honest, decent people (i.e. ninety percent of the left) I beg you to leave no while there's still time. Fear is the only thing these people understand. If you can't accept that, you don't belong in the United States. 

     For those who don't know, Charlie Kirk was a founder of Turning Point USA before he was shot in a college shooting this afternoon. My only problem with it is that it was him and not Donald Trump who bit the dust. Otherwise, I don't think it could have happened to a nicer guy. Yet most of the Leftists I see seem to be more concerned with trying to avoid the attention of the Alt-Right than celebrating the death of someone who intentionally caused so much pain and grief to so many of their own, especially at his own hand. I have to ask; why do we care what the right thinks of us? They've decided they want us dead, and if we don't give them a reason to kill us they'll pull one out of their ass. All the bland platitudes in the world aren't going to convince them that we're nice, normal people who just want to live our lives in peace, and staying invisible is just going to make it that much harder to tell when we've gone missing. Shouldn't this be the moment we say, "Fuck It," and make a point of telling the right that we're done being nice? The death camps are coming, we can't avoid that no matter how hard we try, and I don't think that protesting will stop Trump and his cronies from killing us where we stand. At this point our only choices are to leave this place or go down cursing it for existing.