I'm now struggling with this horrible feeling that I'll wake up tomorrow to find that Democracy, in America at least, is well and truly dead. I saw a map recently of places that might survive world war III, and I won't lie my main thought was, "If they weren't so isolated, I might decide to move." So here's hoping that when this post goes up democracy is still alive, somewhat. Because I don't like living on a precipice, but the thought of what comes afterwards fills me with dread. 

    I hope that we make it through the next few years at least a little bit intact. I don't think that I'm the only one who's beliefs are tainted by the fact that they no longer believe in the concept of America anymore. 

    If I could go back ten years, I'd tell my past self to vote for Bernie Sanders. If the Overton window had been further to the left when this started, we might have been able to survive fascism. 

     What happens if we lose? We don't have a plan for what to do if, despite all of our efforts, there's a complete takeover of our government. All we seem to be doing is pushing back against Trump now. What about if he wins? Will we give up? Will we just roll over and accept that this is our life now? I want to believe that we'll keep fighting, but I worry that if we don't think about what will do if this doesn't work, we won't be able to keep going. 

    I wonder what would happen if we broke apart and stopped trying to put up a unified front. It would make it harder to know who to trust, but it would also make it harder for the government to fight us. It might also help to go out wearing masks. You know, because Covid is still around, bird flu is becoming an issue, and we just might want to try and make it hard for the surveillance systems of the world to identify us. 

     I don't normally do out of order posts, but I'm beginning to realize that there's a decent chance the internet won't be around much longer. Mainly the parts of it that I use to keep backups, as well as host the blog. I'm keeping an eye on things, but I'm starting to think that it would be a good idea to make a plan for shutting the blog down. I don't trust the world to be around for much longer, and I feel like I'm throwing my creativity away. I'm going to start working on getting the blog backed up onto one drive, and once I have enough storage on hand I'm downloading everything that I have on various word processor platforms to it and making sure that I have it plugged in at all times. I don't want to lose everything that I've written, and I want to make sure that my writing is safe long after this blog is shut down for good. 

     My wish for this year is for more new religions to surface. We need them badly, and I don't like the feeling that I'm the only person who seems to notice our lack of things to direct our belief towards. I hope that you, the person reading this, decides to come with your own religion based on whatever it is you find meaningful. I can't be the only person who feels like what we have isn't enough anymore. 

Recurrence

 There's something comforting 
About knowing
That we're doomed to repeat history.
There's something nice
About knowing
That you'll find something familiar
About the world you're in,
Even if you're in the far future.
There's something nice
About knowing
Who you are,
But that's only because
You know that you're doomed to be stuck here.

An endless cycle 
Of death and destruction,
Decay and resurrection,
Ending,
Beginning,
Loss
And creation.
This is the past,
Present
And future,
A thing we cannot escape,
Something we can't unlearn,
A part of physics
That we can't seem to change.

How to escape the endless recurrence,
How to stop the endless denial,
How to recreate physics
So that we're not doomed to behave like planets
Instead of people.

History repeats,
We're doomed to forget,
Reality comes undone
And yet we still find something comforting
About knowing that tomorrow will come
No matter what. 

     Well, it's groundhog day. Let's hope that spring doesn't come too quickly, we could all use a bit more rain to make the world a little bit greener.

    Has it ever occurred to any of you that you can keep going forward, regardless of what the people in charge tell you? I have a feeling that's going to become vital to fighting this administration.