I got my test results back yesterday, and I don't have celiac disease. Yet, anyways. 

Hope

 Sometimes hope 
Is a phone in a bag of rice,
Waiting to be turned on.
Sometimes hope
Is a box of cookies
Waiting to be eaten.
Sometimes hope
Is nothing more than a promise that
Good or bad
Life will go on. 

     This is pretty much a placeholder because I just got tested for celiac disease, and as of the time of writing I don't have the results back. I don't know if I'll get them by today or tomorrow, but I'll update as soon as I can. 

The Primordial Scream

 Everything is getting smaller.
Every day that passes
The size of the space 
That I'm allowed to occupy 
Is less and less. 
I can't take it anymore. 
I need to scream.
I need to let my voice be heard
Across the Universe.
I need to invoke the scream 
Of the ancients
When they realized the Gods
Could not see them. 

     Am I wrong for wishing that more people knew about Infinitelism? I don't want to start a cult, and I don't want this to be just another money making self help scheme. I want this to be something that does genuine good for the world. Unfortunately, no one's done any studies about how to run an ethical religion. You're just supposed to magically know what not to do. 

     I've already said that I'm not going to vote, and I stand by that, but the state of America pre-election still has me deeply concerned. The Democrats, and the press, are repeating the same mistakes that got Trump elected in 2016, despite the fact that everyone agrees that he shouldn't be allowed to get a second term. Maybe this just feels obvious to me, since I'm an Infinitelist, but if you can't stop yourself from doing things that reveal just how much the country is a figment of our collective imagination, than you shouldn't be in charge at all. 

Live and Let live

 "Don't worry about life changing
Or things getting worse,
Just live and let live!"
That's what the voices
In the Infinite keep telling me,
How do I tell them
That I'm not going to do that?
 I'm not going to live
In a world where I'm not heard.

    I think that for my first novel, I'm going to make it a sort of fantasy story that has a lot of real world medical conditions. If fantasy can have a twelve month calendar, it can have disability in it as well. 

Obscurity

 For as long as I've been alive,
People have chosen to hide me
From their mind's eye,
Dare I choose the path
That will force them to see me
As I actually am? 

      As of yesterday, it's been one year since Hamas attacked Israel and Netanyahu cemented himself as the most demented asshole on the planet. It takes moxie to take what should be a big show of your enemies immorality and instead use it as a demonstration of how right they were to hate your ass. I wouldn't be stunned if the reason our government hasn't turned its back on Israel is because they know that if they do, Israel isn't likely to survive. A reasonable position, if one chooses to forget that they could have told Israel to stop much sooner and then this wouldn't have happened.